Really, I know it. Everyone knows it. To be a completely healthy person, exercise is a must. Commercials, magazine articles, gurus, and newspapers have millions and millions of articles, tests, and facts to back up this thought.
I've not always been bigger, but I am now. This isn't something that I talk about, it's not something that I'm proud of, and for me it's daily mental torture. I grew up feeling like being my size was not the right size - I could always be smaller - and this was when I weighed less than a black Labrador. It's not that I don't know how to eat right or belong to a gym, it is just that the amount to loose now is so large, that I don't even know how to begin...Weight Watchers, Jenny Craig, a personal trainer, and my family and friends wonder if I'll ever be able to pass the three week mark without messing up....again.
I belong to a gym and actually really like going, but I do not like how I look at the gym. This is the thing, I know that I am supposed to work out, but show my "bigger" girl self where to buy some decent looking workout clothes. Trust me when I say that I 've looked....at the mall, at sports shops, online, BUT...most of the time, I end up wearing a big man's t-shirt and some sloppy shorts. I already feel like I don't fit in, so does what I have to wear need to be so obvious too?
As I finish this blog, so many things run through my mind...is tomorrow the day that I will begin a healthy eating regimen? How long will it take me to lose the weight that I need to lose? Will I ever really be able to find good-looking workout clothes? The answer is in the search - and I am now on the prowl.
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